Frustration

I am so frustrated with art school right now. If I could put up a list of all the things I am tired of hearing, and the response I would REALLY like to give them...


-What does it mean?
I don't know...I did it because I thought it was cool.

-Why did you do that this way or that way?
I did it because it was the only way that would work efficiently, and that made sense to me.

-How does it make you feel?
It makes me feel like you shouldn't have asked that. What do you mean how does it make me feel? It's a piece of art...it makes me feel like it should be looked at and not so closely critiqued sometimes.

-What was your inspiration for this piece?
Nothing. I just kind of decided to do it one day. Is that ok with you?

-Where do you see this piece in the future?
Probably in a box in my parents basement with all the other crap I have done in the past 4 years. I have no urge to re-do most of my projects if I am happy with them.

I have mentioned in past posts that I feel like I have hit a block. I have decided it's just extremely frustrating to not know what to do anymore. I feel like my work just isn't what it was in the past, and I don't know how to make it any better. I am just upset with how art school is going right now, and I know that is in part to do with the fact that I am not really working on my art, so much as working on websites, and pieces that I don't even enjoy. I want to be doing portraits for fun. I want to enjoy being in the darkroom again. I want to feel something when I take a picture again. Right now I feel like all of my work is just kind of dragging, and nothing is working. I don't know how to get out of this, but I can't be in it anymore. I can't be doing this crap work anymore. I need to step it up. I need to start doing amazing work again...


wish me luck